My submission.
I had been questioning about a god/jesus since my looking for a faith in jr/high school (because everyone else had one). I went to a lot of different churches looking for “the right one”. I never really felt anything spiritual at church, I usually felt bored. I think I mainly went for a sense of belonging to -something-. Sometime in/shortly after high school I had read an article in a magazine/internet somewhere about atheism, and it sparked something in me. I went back and forth on believing for years. When I met my atheist fiance I was going through 1 week-1 months time of “naaahhhh there can’t be a god”. And meekly back to “But what if there is??? Am I going to go to hell??”
My fiance died almost 10 years ago. If anything, during that time I was -not- atheist. I was angry at what I thought was god. The person who killed my fiance never was caught/confessed. I had nothing else to be angry at so I took it out on some imaginary … thing. It was a vent to let go of some painful emotions.
After a long time, and my grief was no longer heart wrenching, I began to realize life is going to go on regardless. In my perusing of the internet, I would constantly run across hateful religious people/sayings. It led to my disdain of religion, which led to some links of atheism.
Just look up the tag atheism/atheist and see what I saw( http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/atheism not all posts are FROM atheists, so be aware that it could be a fundie trolling). Logic, and those things are what led me back to atheism. NOT the fact my fiance died 10 years ago, OR the fact my mom died 2 years ago.
(Source: atheism-shitthatblows)
