Happy 4th! I’m feeling like shit :D

Maybe I’m just pms’ing? Over thinking? Over analyzing?

My actions, and other’s reactions are bouncing around in my brain. Lets just say that my brain has instantaneous touches on…. fuck me, this relationship isn’t going to last. Optimism says that this is extremely brief moment that will most definitely pass.

But right now I’m a mess with remembering Remy’s and my mom’s death and the fact I haven’t had -any- real alone time in a long long time. I had declared that one weekend was going to be my alone time, which was nixed due to whatever. Ok fine, the next weekend, oh nope such and such is going on. Alll right NEXT weekend for sure, nope whoops this is happening. And now I have another roomie, and now I’ll pretty much never have a day completely alone.
Oh OH what sparked all this? The fact my car hasn’t been fixed in over 2 weeks. I’m stuck. I can’t escape. And I’M the asshole because I wanted to be in a room by myself.

/first world whining